Accepting a challenge

Well, my friend Major Bubbles has laid out a challenge, and so I think I shall attempt it. I'm not going to say it will be easy, or that my blogs will be any good, but it shall be done!

I feel a little hesitant to write a blog. I truly do. In part it's because I read about 20 different blogs and I am always amazed at the writers' eloquence. I am not an eloquent writer. I'm not even an eloquent speaker. So, reading these people's wonderful thoughts that they express so well makes me feel somewhat inadequate to the task. Writing is not something that comes easy to me, or that I think I do particularly well. This challenge will force me to think of something to write, even if it is complete nonsense.

Another reason I feel a little hesitant is I have never been one to bear my soul to the world. I've never been one to bear my soul to my best friends, as Annie could probably attest to. (By the way, I do think I've told you more than I've told anyone else, so that is saying something.) This probably dates back to 8th grade. I was going to our spring dance, and I had a HUGE crush on this boy who I had English with. I wrote down my hopes for the evening in my journal: that maybe he would ask me to dance and it would be wonderful in every way. As I was in the bathroom, fixing my hair, my little sister came in and started teasing me about this boy. Of course, my mom overheard, and it wasn't long until the whole family knew and proceeded to tease me about it for the next 2 years. Now, granted my sister and I shared a room, and she was only ten at the time, but that was my journal and my private thoughts, and to have someone read them and share them with everyone made me feel violated. And ever since then I've been a little less likely to share, and a little more likely to keep it to myself, because who know what will happen.

I got over that 8th grade crush a long time ago, (I had an English class with him a couple years ago, which brought back some fun memories) but it's taken me longer to feel comfortable with sharing those deepest, darkest secrets with people, even if they aren't all that deep or dark. There are some I'm sure will never come to light. But here, maybe some of the lighter ones will come to the surface.