I've found myself in an interesting situation the past few months. I don't like any boys. I don't mean I don't enjoy the company of male friends. I'm just not forming any huge-o crushes as I typically do. It's been a new experience for me, not necessarily a bad one, but different.
Usually, I develop some major crush at least once a year. I could tell you who they all were too. Here they are, in no particular order (Except alphabetical. I did work in a library.): Chad, Cute Zoology Boy, Dan, Dan, Jesse, Jon, Jonathan (not Gross Jonathan), Rob, and Steve, Steve, and Steve. These crushes are without fail one-sided. And the one side is alway my side. I may be led to believe otherwise, but it always ends they same way. They get a girlfriend/married/dump me.
The past six or so months have been a little different. While I find several guys attractive, I don't really have any desire to go on dates with them. It's a strange feeling. I had a friend apologize to me recently because all of our conversations as of late have been one sided...all about her and her current crush. I don't have a problem with it.
It's kind of liberating to be free. Yes, I still want to date, and yes I still think I'm in the "Dating Black Hole," but I'm okay. I don't have some all-consuming passion with a guy. I don't have to try and figure out what every little thing he does means, when usually it means nothing. I don't have to deal with the heartbreak when he gets a girlfriend who is tall and blond and beautiful. It's great.
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You, my friend, are great! It's nice being in that state of "I don't care." You are incredible in every sense of the word. When you do snag a man, he'll be very lucky! But until then, keep not caring. Either that or I have a few high heels we could throw.
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